I BOTCHED o_O

          The experience was real, horrible, and embarrassing. I did forget to sign my printed name at the application letter I made. Damn! I flunked! Supah failure to the nth power. How can a very little simple signature tear my ever waiting big event? 

          It was so damn awful. Worst is they may possibly perceive my personality on my first encounter with them. We know the famous, "first impression lasts", sometimes. I hope it won't be just sometimes, but it's really not. 

          One more, during the interview session, duh!, my confidence dug into the ground. Where was it? It left me, talking a bit of sense and simple few words in answering the HR personnel's questions. How would answer when she asked, "What machines had you handled before?". Blank and silence surrounded my foggy mind. No words came out from my mind in few seconds. And, the least good thing was I replied, "NGT". Oh gosh! What did I just say? An NGT, a machine? It is not a machine but an equipment, a simple tube to be inserted via the nose into the stomach. 

          By that time, I started to feel butterflies in my stomach, heartbeat pacing fast, and my anxiety heightened. Nevertheless the mixed emotions, I was honest and simply natural with my words. I admitted that I had not handled various machines during my clinical experience.  However, I witnessed how the machines were used. Also, when I was using the machines for ECG and hemodialysis, it was with assistance by a professional for I was only a novice or beginner at that time. Moreover, I had not had any working experience but my IVT training lately. It is for the reason that I'm a fresh board passer from November set of exams.

          Fortunately, I gained my confidence with my simple wit and truthfulness. It aided me, but not enough to vanish the anxiety bothering and sinking me. After all those terrible and death-giving instances, it didn't pull me down. I'm still optimistic and praying to have it.

          However, sometimes I feel schizotypal (personality disorder), in which everything happens the opposite way of what I thought and hoping preceding the time it is expected. The prime reason is, oftentimes, the fantasy thought sindeed happen. The opposite of what  I perceived usually occurs. By that, I do thought-stopping strategy or think the other way of what I am desiring, so in time, the desirable event will come. 

          After all those pessimistic thoughts and circumstances, I did not and will not stop hoping for, even not the best, but just the good result of what I am inspiring. Reminiscing the past actions and events indeed still makes me anxious, coward, and down. Still, it aches.

          With faith, I prefer to seize the disturbing feeling and instill the optimistic courageous attitude in me. Noting will happen if I continue to recognize and welcome the unwanted and undesirable perception in my mind. I believe, creating a prayer will help me with trust.

          "I believe, God has a better future planned for me. If it is not good for me, maybe a challenging one that will make me realize things as lessons and mold me a better person. I rely on a view that God will not give us problems or tasks that we can't surpass. These obstacles are made for us to beat. Indeed, this insight made me positively move forward."

Amazing Vidz wid Audrey and Gamaliel

            The first time I saw this two videos shared to me by my cousin, I was really struck by their amazing and outrageous talents. Really extra-ordinary. With their voices and nice blending, some of the people even thought that their version is better than the original...hehe... But still, credits to the original songs and the artists who delivered the song so well and made these  Indonesian teens admire and imitate the songs.

Just Dance (acapella) by Lady Gaga

            Of all the songs they had uploaded on Youtube, Just Dance (acapella) is really the most awesome, for me. The beat and harmony really have the right tune. It is so musically delivered. Gamaliel has the hardest part, though, he still made the music zestful. The role is not that easy when he did the beatbox while singing. Also, Audrey has one of the cutest and sweetest voices. 

Telephone by Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce Knowles

             Telephone, a fast-paced pop dance music is a bit hard though, for me, they still made it  with vivacious rhythm. As we can see at the end, they really had multiple bloopers before they had perfected the melody. They deserve an applause for their determination and drive to finish the song.

Lucky by Jason Mraz & Colbi Caillat

 

          Lucky for them, that Lucky is meant to be sung so sweet. They made it different and lovely. They can go the higher pitch than what was sung originally. With their renditions, hopefully they can produce songs from their original pieces and even capture more hearts...

IVT Training (half-through to it)

          First day of training, I was excited, but nervous of having the challenge and taking more steps up for my profession. To add up to that, I wasn't familiar of the venue and of the faces that surrounded me. I was alone, looking for someone to be acquainted with. And, all of them, were having their time, chit-chattting with their friends while waiting for the seminar to start. But still, I had the will and confidence to pursue and use the thought-stopping techniques to cease me from thinking things that didn't have to be acknowledged.

          Then, I thought, "WHOA!". I was shocked with the orientation given about the things we needed to comply before accomplishing the training and get the certificate. It was hard though, I still believed that positive mentality yields positive upshots. Confidence really poured in me that time. hehe. Just by that time, I knew about the return demonstrations and completion we have to complete before passing the training. Whew!

          The seminar was composed of 3 days didactic training and 2 days practicum. The whole program followed the ANSAP's provisions. We were also given the booklet by ANSAP, wherein our basis during the whole seminar were stated. During the first day, the pre-test was really shockingness. hahaha...(yah, shockingness is present in Encarta Dictionary). The pre-test was more of trouble-free, not to mention the identification of the different veins and arteries presented at the drawing given. Whew! I was a bit sure, I still could pass the pre-test. And yes, I did!..hehe

          Then, we had a review of different concepts related to Intravenous Therapy. It was fun, brought by some of the vivacious instructors. But a bit boring to some, who just read the texts at the OHP..zzzz....

          On the second day, we had our speaker for the IVT training, who was Mrs. Nolasco.  (I forgot her first name, tsk tsk.) She's the owner of the manufacturing company of some of the trusted and branded syringes used at the hospital. She was a striking lady with her captivating looks, as if she was 10 years younger than her current age. (I think, she's in her early 40's. hehe). She captured our attention, not only with her ooziness of sexy and elegance, but with her zestful attitude when lecturing. She inspired us all and left us wanting to be like her in the future.. (wishful thinking)..hehe.. And before we ended, we also had our post-test, which was really the same questions from the pre-test..hahaha (surprisingly funny).

          The 3rd day was really the opposite of what I expected. I usually anticipated for difficult things and maximum challenges before an important and big event happens. It  added readiness for the coming encounter and wouldn't be hard for me to accept failures. At that time, we had to  do RD of 13 procedures in one day. It comprised the:

1. Setting up of IV set
2. Insertion of IV cannula utilizing the Dummy Arm
3. Changing of IVF bottle 
4. Discontinuing the IVF infusion
5. Incorporating drugs into the IVF bottle
6. Administering drugs through IV push
7. Giving drugs through Volumetric Chamber
8. Giving drugs through Heparin-Lock device with 3-way stop cock
9. Setting, Giving and Discontinuing Blood Transfusion
10. Giving Parenteral Nutrition through Peripheral Venous Access
11. Giving Parenteral Nutrition through Central Venous Access
12. Discontinuing the Parenteral Nutrition
13. One-on-One IV cannula instertion

          That day was a pressure. Nevertheless, as I went with the return demonstration, it was quick, easy, and smooth-taking. I was happy that I finished it promptly without delay. And with just half a day, I went home with success. hehe. The mechanism was voluntarily, that aided me. That ended our didactic training.

          Then, for our practicum, we were told to complete 3 IV insertions, 3 drug administration, and 2 blood transfusions in 2 days. The whole program catered 65 participants at a maximum according to ANSAP's provisions. We were grouped by 5 to accomplish the requirements in 2 days. Whoo..! My date for completion will hit this last 2 days of April. 

          Then, by June 4 of this year will be the deadline of the requirements including the certificate of attendance basic 3-day IV training, 2x2 picture with apple/light green background, certificate of PRC registration and rating, photocopy of claim stub, and hard-copy of the completion of 3+3+2 requirements following the given format by the ANSAP. These requirements will be sent to ANSAP for the processing of the certificate and ID.

          Wish me luck guys...and i'll share to you soon..hehe

Excited but Nervous

          I am going to have my first ever training of IV therapy at Mindanao Sanitarium and Hospital. This will take place this April 6, 2010. I'm a little bit excited but really nervous about it. It was about over a year ago when I had my last experience during my academic internship at some of the hospitals. And, oops! I almost forget how will I execute some of those nursing procedures that I had performed during the course of my education. Nevertheless, I still have the basics..

          This training will enable to exercise my practice and aid me on upgrading my skills and updating the facts about intravenous infusion, drug administration and blood transfusion. They said I have to complete those skills to accomplish the training. 

          Though I'm thrilled of the upcoming event, I'm more nervy than I was at my first academic practice. I will be dealing with lives, not just a life. I will be handling not only my life, but the lives of those who are more badly off. Broadening my assessment and thoughts of the surrounding and be keen and enthusiastic to the needs of those deprived.

          This will be a start of a new phase of my existence. I expect it to be more thought-provoking than my bygone incidents, which were really stimulating. Hope I can succeed with this. For the advancement of my view on the time to come, I really have to come across this stage.   

Divine Mercy Shrine of El Salvador

          This awesome shrine is located in the small city of El Salvador (The Savior), which is about 18 kilometers west of Cagayan de Oro City, close to the shores of Northern Mindanao of the Philippines. It is said at the foot of the shrine, "JESUS I TRUST IN YOU"..

          During the Holy Week, the amazing shrine of the Divine Mercy was visited by thousands of people from different towns and far away cities for the people to dwell and spend their holy time with our God. A very solemn and inviting place to stay and worship our Lord. Jesus' figure, which is 50 feet tall,  stands at the center and peak of the shrine. The astonishing scenery of the shrine is really an eye-catching view to the people due to its creative and inspired works of arts. 

          From the entrance of the shrine, you have to climb hundreds of stairs up to get to the gigantic figure of Jesus. Also, you have to take another hundreds of steps up to climb up to the heart of Jesus. However, during our stay at the shrine, the way to the heart of Jesus was not open for the people to walk up. This is due to security reasons. The shrine was open 24/7 and for the safety of the people, it was secured by some of the law enforcements officers safeguarding the place.

          Some of the tourists even stayed at night at the foot of the shrine, bringing tents for their shelter. Outside the shrine, various of foods and souvenirs are for sale for the comfort and likes of the people. Candles and prayer pamphlets are also sold outside the shrine.

          As you enter the shrine, wearing of sleeveless, shorts, or even pedals is prohibited. If any of those were worn upon entering the shrine, it is required to wear the long skirt or shirt for the person to pass in. (see the right picture).

          Then, near the gateway of the shrine is the first station of the cross. People also visit the shrine to accomplish the 14 STATIONS OF THE CROSS. As we performed the ceremony, we also climbed  hundreds of steps to get to the 14th station, which is infront of Jesus' figure. Lastly, the feeling was victorious and overwhelming when we got into the last station and completed the ceremony.

          On the second day of our visit, we attended the Mass for the Veneration of the Cross. It was really my first time to participate the celebration. The small and humble chapel was loaded by people. The mass was presided by foreign priests. it was a different and more solemn and inspiring mass I had attended. Before the Eucharistic celebration ended, all of us lined up to caress and kiss Jesus' figure after the veneration. By that part, it almost took 2 hours. It was really a very lengthy but affective mass.

          Then, before we leave the shrine, we also bought Holy Water from the shrine. It is said to be a healing water. People are bringing different kinds of containers and large bottles for them to gather and bring home. For some who had not bring any, there are bottles for the holy water sold outside the shrine. The water is free for the people to drink, collect, and wash.

          It is really a one of a kind experience, very unique and inspiring one. Hope more and more people will come over to visit the holy place and also have their own exceptional experience in the DIVINE MERCY SHRINE of EL SALVADOR.